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Quinn Lynette Bodie
Quinn Lynette Bodie
Home...at last !!!
The Quest for Quinn
By Debbie Bodie Rincon, GA
The Long Road | The Word Came | The Journey | A Different Culture
We Have A Daughter | Was It A Mistake | Paperwork | Royal Treatment
Final Days in China | Home At Last | The First Kiss Photo Album
The Long Road
It was a long road that led to the adoption of Quinn. For me it entailed 22 years of trying to have a baby, starting when I was 18 and newly married. For Al, it was the culmination of our attempts over the last five years toward the same end, with the whole thrilling infertility treatment circus thrown in as an extra added attraction. After the failure of our in vitro attempt in 1994 we pretty much concluded that we just weren t meant to be parents. Al was fairly philosophical about it (he already had 3 grown daughters), but I was bitter, and angry at God.
I spent nearly a year in hard grief. I couldn t bear to discuss the in vitro. I had to leave the church sanctuary during baby dedications. I strenuously avoided pregnant women. But it was my anger at God that caused me the most grief, because I needed so badly to turn to Him for comfort. I knew I needed to mend the rift in my soul and ask His forgiveness, but oh, the bitterness ate at me. What finally made the difference was as I was crying to God again one night, and I heard myself telling Him, "I had already promised to give my child to you..." and that brought me to a dead stop. I had, indeed, promised to give my child to God. And I truly believed (and still do) that the living embryo that lived so brief a time in my womb WAS a child, not a "fetus." So what exactly was I complaining about I promised that child to God, and He took him. If I wasn t willing to give my child to the Lord, I should never have made such a promise. I examined my heart closely, and found that I didn t regret that promise a bit, would make it again without hesitation, and knew that I couldn t continue blaming my heavenly...
Quinn Lynette Bodie
